Change is hard. TALK SOME SENSE INTO ME PLEASE [02 Sep 2008|06:24am] [ mood | scared ] [ music | Athlete - Best Not To Think About It ] As a continuation to my post yesterday... i slept on it and I am still unsure of what to do, of what is going to happen... It's a HUGE pay cut.. it's a 50 mile one way commute.. 100 miles a day .. 500 miles a week commute to my new job at FOX Studios. I am super scared to move for some reason.. I guess it's just that change of any kind.. transition of any kind is hard. At least I know I an get a job back at UC Irvine. Maybe it's also the relationship I just started with Josh, it is going to be hard not seeing him everyday and spending my weekends with him (and on his boat in Dana Point). He lives 10 minutes away from me right now, so i've spent a lot of time with him, +/- his friends, +/- my friends. Josh and his family totally support me working up in L.A. (my family does too) and tell me I am still young and might as well take the chance/opportunity while I can. His family really likes me a lot, because I have so much going for me, and that I am sweet and all that. Anywho I guess I should tell you a bit about Josh (Joshua David). He'll be 19 in October (young i know.. but he makes me super happy and he is mature for his age), he's going to school as an Art major. He's a fraternal twin with his brother Justin. He has a two boats and on our first date (which lasted a weekend) he took me fishing, kayaking, see*doing, boating. He spent a year living in Indiana, been to lots of places in the U.S, Scuba dives, he can cook, sew, and is a really good artist. His friends really like me, said I am the number one girl he has brought around and that they all approve of me, and all my friends have said the same about him. He has still yet to meet my parents, but i am not worried, as long as I am happy that is all my parents care about. He treats me well and I honestly get the tingles.. that feeling when we kiss and I an just lay in bed with him all day and be happy.. but I am taking it one day at a time and being careful because I am so scared of getting hurt again.. even though i don't think he would ever hurt me. oh yea.. the sex has been amazing :X! haha. Today is my last day at UC Irvine.. I cried on Friday and I know I will cry today too and I hate crying and I hate goodbyes... I have it soooo good there FUCK. anywho someone talk some sense into me PLEASE.. i need it FUEL TV is apart of FOX Studios.. its a non contract job until December. it's heading the direction I want to go. I am sitting in my office at UC Irvine and realizing how amazing I have it here.. I guess i have to stop regretting and just go with the flow.. I was so stoked on being offered the job that now I don't know.. I guess i can see if they have more money... so pretty much I have job till December then who knows if i will get more pay or not. I guess I can always come back to UC Irvine if worst case scenario and my 5 year track will restart but guess working in the Industry is a job a lot of people would kill for. Plus working in this job at FUEL TV (action sports) opens so many doors. My parents are going to help me out to help me put financially so I am able to live in LA and have health insurance and live a life, totally unexpected of them to do so, but WOW. :) So tomorrow at 10AM i start my new job/life in LA ( i still need an apartment though) 2 comments|post comment

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